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thank u,i love this chapter to.i am proud of my story. it is a very good chapter,i am working on my other story,but i am still writing it out,once it is done u all will know. thx for the comments.

[Dark Night Sky]

here, i am going to post chapter six,so if u all don't mind,plz enjoy.
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warning:cuteness,romance,pain,a very bad scene,and thats all.

My life in Hell
Chpater six:
Help for me!

Mika drove home,parked in the driveway,and went inside.
"Mom...Dad...are you guys home?" Mika asked once he got in.
"What?" his mother responded. She,at the time,she was the only one home.
"Can I ask you a question?" Mika asked,with a hint of urgency.
"Certainly,what is it?" his mother said.Mika was sitting on the couch.
"Can I have a friend live with us?" Mika asked with even more urgency and with some worry.
"Why?" his mother asked.She didn't want just anyone to live with her family.
"Well...she needs to have a family that treats her better.She gets abused mom,that's why I would like to help her," Mika explained.He didn't want to say everything he knew about my family to his mom.He didn't want to worry his mom and he didn't want to hurt me.
"Oh...I see.She can gladly stay here.She can stay for as long as she wants.But where will she sleep?" his mother said.She wanted to be the nice mom.
"She'll stay in my room.Now I have to go do something,then I'll go and pick her up," Mika said rushing off to his room.
*dialing of Mika's cellphone.*
"Hey,Rachel.I want to tell you something.Yes,but....oh,I see,well....I'm breaking up with you.Yes,but...ok well bye,"Mika said,glad that he finally dumped her.
With that out of the way,he decided to go get me,after a shower.He wanted to look good when he brought me to his house.
His shower was 20 minutes,he wanted to smell good to.So after that he got changed in his clothes and ran to put on his shoes.
"Mom,I'll be back!Off to pick up friend!"Mika called as he grabbed his car keys and rushed off to get me.
Once he got to my house,it was 5:00pm now, he listened before he knocked.He heard yelling and stammers and the sound of metal cutting through skin and the screams of pain that went with it.Then he decided to knock,so he knocked softly on the front door.
"Hello!" my dad cheered as he opened the door.He was never nice to me,but he was nice to everyone else.
"Umm...hey.I'm here to see Lizen.Is she here?" Mika asked.He knew I was,but he wanted to be polite.
"Yep.You can see her,if you want,you can stay for dinner," my dad suggested.Mika noticed,behind my dad,he saw that I wobbled up the stairs to my room.
"I'll think about it,"Mika said walking into the house and rushing off to my room.
'Please be ok,please be ok,please be ok!'Mika thought as he rushed to my room.
He knocked on my door,no answer.Mika began to worry,he hoped that I would be ok when he walks into my room.When he walked in,what he saw made him worry a lot and pained him to look.I was cut all over my arms,all over my legs,slashed and stabbed all over my chest and back,my face was cut and I had a black eye and bruises all over.He knew that this could kill any normal human being,but he knew that I wasn't a normal human.I was immortal,I had magic,I would never die,I would be tortured for the rest of my life.
"Lizen!?Shit,I got here too late.I tried to get here sooner,I really did.I hope you are ok," Mika said while he put me on my bed and bandaged me.He sat down and waited for me to wake up.
"Errrr.....the pain....what happened?" I asked as I woke up.I noticed that Mika was sitting at the side of my bed.Then it all started to come back to me.
"It's a long story.I'm glad your ok,"Mika said getting up.
"I see,I remember most of it.So am I able to....go to your house?" I asked while I tried to get up.
"Yep,I asked and my mom said it is ok if you do.She said you can stay as long as you like," Mika explained as he helped me up.
"Cool,that means I can leave now right?" I asked as I got up.I was now in a standing position.
"Of course.Well...um...your father asked me to stay for dinner," Mika said as he went to my bedroom door.
"What did you tell him?" I asked,a bit scared that he told my dad that he will stay.
"I told him that I'll think about it.I knew you would want to leave right away," Mika said while he pulled money out of his pocket,"We're able to go out to dinner."
"Thank you so much Mika,I will have to find a way to repay you," I said as I had everything I wanted packed.
"That's ok,you don't have to repay me,I don't mind paying or saving you,"Mika said as he opened the door for me.
"Oh no,I insist on repaying you.I will repay you because it will make me feel better," I said holding his hand.I didn't even notice that I was holding it until I went to pick up my backpack,which held all my things.
"So are you going to tell your dad that you're going out for dinner?" Mika asked blushing because we were holding hands.
"Yeah,I'll tell him,don't want him to be mean to you," I said as we went downstairs.I was pulling him downstairs with me because we were still holding hands.
"Young Lady,what are you doing?" dad demanded when we both were downstairs.He saw that Mika and I were holding hands.
"I'm going out to dinner,you don't mind do you?" I asked stopping immediatly at the bottom of the stairs.Mika was behind me and was still holding my hand.I was blushing because he still was.
"Sure you can,as long as it is with that young man behind you," dad cheered to us.He was playing Mr.Niceguy again.
"Thank you dad," I said while Mika and I got on our shoes.
"Your welcome dear," dad chimmed while the two of us left.
"I'm so happy that your safe," Mika said as we got in his car and pulled away from my house.
"I owe you my life Mika,this is a big favor you're doing for me," I told him while he drove off to his house.
"I'll do anything to help you Lizen.You're the one I love," Mika said while he took my hand,which was around my backpack in my lap,and he held it.I blushed a lot,I loved the feeling of his hand holding my own.
"I love you too!But what about Rachel?Did you..." I said,I was a little off,but I wanted to know if he did break up with her.
"I broke up with her before I came to 'visit' you.So,I'm single now," Mika said with a smile.'I hope she likes my house,I just want her to be happy and treated like a person.'
"Not anymore,you're mine now.And I hope it stays that way forever," I said smiling as well.I was still blushing,but I didn't care.I was going to live with the guy I love.
"Alright then.I hope you like my house.It is big just to let you know.Oh,and you'll be staying in my room.I hope you don't mind," Mika explained to me while he kissed my hand and continued to drive.
"Ok,I've been warned.I also don't mind stayin' in your room,I don't want to be anywhere without you," I said blushing even more when he kissed my hand.
"That's so sweet!I know guys dont' say that,but it was," Mika said as he pulled into his driveway.
"Thank you," I replied as he turned off the car.
"We're here,"Mika said as we both got out of the car.He stood beside me as we stood staring at his home.At our home.At my new home,my life begins here,as a real person.
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i am proud of this chapter,and i am happi for the ppl who comment. i love u all(once again,as friends). and i hope u all enjoyed this chapter,and if u notice any spelling errors,plz tell me.

[OnewingedAngel]

There are errors, but, personally, I think they add to that personal element I had mentioned to you earlier. So, if you want, I can find them all for you, but I don't think it's necessary.

More please!

[Dark Night Sky]

this is the next chapter for u all to read and enjoy!
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warning:romance,cuteness,and a few distractions!

My life in Hell
Chapter seven:
My new life at Mika's

"Wow!!This is.....beautiful," I finally said after staring at his home for 10 minutes. His house was big,yes,but it was also beautiful.
"Hmph....I know,it is nice isn't it.I hope you like the inside just as much as the outside," Mika said leading me,who put on my bckpack,into his house.
Once inside he gave me a tour of the whole house. I was fasinated by how big the rooms were and the paint the rooms were. After that he showed me to his room and helped me unpack all my stuff.
"So,do you like the house?" Mika asked while he put my lego on a shelf.
"Oh yes,it is so wonderful!I love this place!"I exclaimed as I put all my clothes in the closet.
"I thought so.After we're done unpacking,where do you want to go and eat?" Mika asked while he sat down to watch me unpack.
"I don't know, anywhere really," I responded while I finished unpacking.
"Ok,so it is a free for all choice then," Mika laughed while I sat down beside him.
"Ok. I guess we should go and get something to eat or they all would be closed," I said curling up to him.
"Good idea,let's go," Mika said going to leave his room.
"'Kay," i said while we left.
We left and went to a resturant,after that we went to the movies. Then we went back to our home and to our room.We layed down on the bed together. His arm was around me,and I was curled up beside him.I thought it was so cute.
"Would today count as our first date?"I asked looking up at him.I really didn't know.
"If you want it to be," Mika said kissing me on the forehead.
"'Kay.Well it was nice," I responded while I blushed and looked away.'He kissed me!Oohh I love him so much!'
"Good.I hoped so.I love you too much to screw this up," Mika explained.He held me closer to him,he just wanted me to be happy.
"You won't screw up,I'm sure of it.What time is it right now?" I asked while curling up to him even more.
"It is....9:00 pm.You don't mind that do you?And thank you for the encouragement that I won't screw up," Mika told me after checking his watch.'She is so warm,so soft. She is like an angel. she is cute,nice,very imagitive,always warm,so soft,beautiful blue eyes,lucious red lips,and white as snow teeth.My little angel.'
"Thank you, and I'm always happy to help.I'm going to take a shower,hope you don't mind," I said as I got up,took my pj's,and headed to the bathroom.
"I don't mind,I can wait," Mika told me as I left the room.
While I took my shower,Mika changed into his pj's and layed on the bed.A few minutes later I returned in the room and slipped under the covers.
"Feel better now?" Mika asked while I curled up to him once again.He put his arm around me again.
"Yep.I had to shower every Sunday morning at my old house," I responded while I started to doze off.
"Here, the only rule for the shower is,don't take forever," Mika said.We both laughed for awhile,until I fell asleep in his arms.He watched me sleep for a bit until he joined me,and slept soundly.His glasses on his bedside table.
The next morning,Wednsday,his brother came in.Unaware of the new housemate,me,he went to wake up his brother,Mika.
"Mika!Time to get up!" his brother called as he nudged Mika.
"Frick off Bill!I've got someone else here!She needs her sleep.And damn it all,it is only 5 in the F'ing morning!"Mika grumbled as he pulled the cover down so he could show his brother me.
"Oh!I'm so sorry,didn't mean to bug you,"Bill said going to leave.
"Too late," I moaned as I rolled over,now awake.
"Sorry,"Bill apologized again.At least now he knew Mika's friend.
"Tis 'kay," I mumbled curling up into Mika's arms once again.
"Are you two together?"Bill asked.He just noticed that both Mika and I holding eachother.
"Yes.Now leave us alone!"Mika yelled holding me close.
"Sorry," Bill said leaving.He didn't like getting on Mika's bad side,that would just equal trouble.
"That was a bit harsh," I mumbled as I was curled up in Mika's arms. I could smell him,he smelt so nice.
"I'm sorry," Mika said looking me in the eye.
"All forgiven," I said looking at him,our lips inches apart.
We just looked at eachother for a moment,then he leaned closer and our lips touched.Our first kiss with eachother,we both enjoyed the touch.His tounge went in my mouth,I responded to this by putting my tounge in his mouth.Then our tounges twined together and we held eachother closer while we kissed.Then the door opened and we heard a male voice.
"Oh God! I'm so sorry.I was just checking on you two,didn't mean to interrupt," Mika's dad said as the two of us stopped and blushed.
"It's ok dad.Just knock next time ok?"Mika said blushing.He still held me in his arms.
"Yeah,good idea," his dad said leaving the room.
"I'm sorry,I didn't mean to get you in trouble.I'm sorry,"I said rolling over so I faced the wall.
"It's not your fault Lizen,I'm the one who kissed you remember,"Mika said rolling me over to look at him again.
"And damn was that kiss ever good,"I snickered looking him in the eyes.
"I thought you would like that,"Mika told me whle he put on his glasses and looked at his watch.
"What time is it?"I asked kissing him gently on the lips,then curled up to his chest.
"It's only 5:45 am.Do you want to get up right now,or do you want to go back to sleep?"Mika asked while he pulled me close.
"Well,I'm up now,so I might as well stay awake.How about you?"I asked looking up at him.
"Oh,I'll stay awake,as long as you do,"Mika said in a sexy tone.When he said it,it made me want to kiss him then and there.
"Oh,I'll be awake for awhile,since there is still school and all,"I said getting up to get dressed.
"I know,but I'm still half asleep,"Mika said getting up and he stood behind me.He wrapped his arms around me and turned me to face him.
"I know how to fix that,"I said,placing my lips on his gently.We kissed for awhile.Then I went and got dressed for school,he did the same.Then we went out for breakfast.Then to school,we had this as our secret.No one but his family knew that we were now dating.We hoped that our friends would find out,but not by us.
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i am also proud of this chapter,so i hope u all enjoy it like u did chapter six.

[rune]

you realy made a splash here good for you i knew you would like it here.


Whatr did i tell you??
honistly i can't remember ...

[rune]

Sounds like someone said something they shouldn't.

Yeah i sort of did but thats to late know ... I even told here in person so she did have warrning

Rune: please don't kill me, the still have no clue whats in them thats how it was ment to be the ... were ment to get off the topic but it was harder than it appeared to be.

Queen Of Dragons: we'll see if you live or no ... I haven't decided if you should ... too lazy to kill at the moment.

Rune: saved for now.


but those story would work if the sugested cahanges were made ... forget i said that would you?

[Dark Night Sky]

don't worry,i wont hurt u,much.*evil laughter*

[Fallen Angel]

Wow, this is getting very interesting indeed...

*waits for more*

[Dark Night Sky]

for everyone who wants to read more,here is chapter eight.
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warning:sadness,cuteness,change to a person,and romance

My life in Hell
Chapter eight:
Our little secret

Once we got to school,I sat at the wall,and he went to his locker to put his stuff away.When he got back to the wall Cherety was sitting with me,she was a little mad because I didn't say anything to her.
"Morning eveyone!"Flare cheered while she and Mika sat down.
"Hey,"Cherety and Mika said as they all just looked sat and looked at me.
"What?"I said looking at them all.
"It's just....you didn't say anything yet.You always say hi to Flare,but today,you seem a little off.Why is that?"Cherety asked as I looked at the floor like it was the most interesting thing in the world.
'Do you want them to know?Do you want to tell them that you left your home to live with Mika?Do you want them to know that you have an abusive father and that you are now dating Mika?No,not yet.They will learn this later,'I thought as I sat staring into space.
"Lizen!Answer me!"Cherety yelled lightly slapping me in the back of my head.
"Ow!What the hell?!"I yelled rubbing the back of my head,"What do you want me to tell you?That my life is just fine and that I'm just damn tired?"
"Well....actually,yes that would be nice to say.But Flare and I know that ain't true,and Mika obviously knows more then we do,"Cherety said,she can read me like a book.She always does,just so she can get her answer.
I sighed,I guess I can tell them since they know somethin' ain't right.
"Fine,I'll tell,'I said.Mika saw that I didn't want to tell,but they were my friends,they had to know.
"So tell us!"Flare said anxious to know.
"I have a very abusive father,I left home,I now live with Mika,and......"I cut myself off.I don't know if Mika would want me to tell them.I looked at Mika,then to the floor.I have just told out my life,Mika can finish.
"And?"Cherety and Flare asked with an anxious look on their faces.
"And we're dating,"Mika finished putting his arm around me.He knew that what I said hurt me so much.He pulled me close to him,then he heard soft sobs from me.
"Poor Lizen,I'm so sorry about what had happened to you.But I'm glad that you are dating Mika,"Flare said patting me on the back.She felt so sad that I had an abusive father.
"I hope you get this all sorted out with your dad.But I'm glad you live with someone who cares for you,"Cherety said rubbing my arm to comfort me.She also felt bad for me.
The tone went and we all went to class. I sat in Civics with my head in my hands. After Civics I went to history,no one noticed me,as always.Then,there was lunch.I went and sat at the wall and gazed out into space,as usual.
"Hey angel,"Mika said sitting next to me and kissed my cheek.
"Hey sweetheart,"I said moving into his arm,he put it around me,and I kissed him on the cheek.
"You ok?"Mika whispered as I curled up to him.
"I guess,"I mumbled as I stared at the floor again.But Mika knew better,he knew that there was something wrong.
"Don't keep secrets from me,please tell me what's bothering you,"Mika pleaded as he lifted my head so that we were eye to eye.
"I told my personal life to them,I told them my secret,I'm worried that they might tell others,"I said,I always tell the truth to Mika,he has that effect on me.
"Don't worry.They're your friends,you can trust them,"Mika replied as he kissed me on the cheek.
"Thank you,"I said hugging him,then I curled up to him.
"Your welcome,"Mika whispered as we kissed on the lips for awhile.
"Awww..."sighed Cherety and Flare when they saw us kiss.They sat down as we broke the kiss and blushed.
"Don't mind us,"Flare said giggling as she saw us blush.
"We didn't mean to interrupt you two,"replied Cherety who looked happy for the both of us.
"It's ok. Lizen was just....not looking happy, so I just wanted her to be happy,"Mika said kissing my cheek.Then he pulled me closer to him.
"Why were you not happy?"Flare wondered out loud.She wanted to know.She thought that I had a good life right now.The perfect guy,the perfect guy's house to live in,the perfect friends,what more did I need.
"Well because I told you my secrets,my personal life,and I worried that you guys would tell others,"I said as I buried my face in Mika's chest.
"That's what bugged you.Oh don't worry,we're your friends,we won't tell anyone what you told us,"Cherety said patting me on the back to make me feel better.
"Thank you,"I mumbled as I looked up at them.
"Your welcome,"Cherety said hugging me.
After lunch I went to my next class,hospitality,which was fun because of Flare.Other then that not fun.Then my last class,my machine shop,not fun at all.The guys didn't notice me at all.Then after school I waited at my usual spot,where I would meet my brother,and I stood and talked to one of Mika's friends until I felt a hand on my waist.
"Hey angel," Mika said giving me a kiss on the cheek,as always.
"Hey sweetheart,we leaving now?"I asked giving him a kiss on the cheek and I pulled him close to me.
"Yep,you ready to go?"Mika asked as he pulled me closer to him.
"Yep,let's go,"I said as we walked to his car.
We went to his car and he drove us home.Once we got in the house I kissed his cheek and went to take a shower.Mika went to his room and went on the computer.
I decided to change how I looked.So I made myself 7 inches taller,my skin smooth and flawless,I made my breasts a few sizes bigger,myself skinner,my hair longer(it now went down to my knees),and my legs,arms back,stomach, and neck were hairless.After my shower I went to Mika's room and walked up behind him and wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him on the cheek.
"Hey angel,feeling better?"Mika asked kissing my arm.
"Hellz yeah,I feel so much better.I also changed my appearence just a bit,"I told him laying on his bed looking up at his ceiling.
"Really?Let me see,"Mika said pausin his game online and got up.
"I guess,"I responded as I stood up to show him my new look.
"Hmmm........" Mika said looking at me and my new look.
"Do you like my new look?"I asked as I spinned around to show him.
"Of course,"Mika said,kissing me on the lips.
"Yeays me,"I said walking over to his computer.
"You are so much happier now that you don't live with your family,"Mika said sitting in his computer chair.
"I am? I am! Wow I didn't know that, when have you noticed that?"I asked as I watched him play his online game.
"Yes you are happier,and I noticed when you moved in with me,"Mika explained while he played his game.
"Cool, what game you playin'?" I asked while I watched him.
"I'm playing World of Warcraft, do you want to play?"Mika asked as he looked up at me.
"No thanks, I'll stick with my gameboy, besides I would need a membership card to play,and I don't have one,"I said as I sat on the bed and pulled out my laptop.
"I can get you one if you want,"Mika suggested as he looked at me.
"I guess if you want me to,I'll play,"I said as he went to get me a membership card.
A few weeks later I got my membership card and I played the game,then I got hooked on it.For those few weeks I always changed my look so no one would see the new me.But one day,everyone found out.
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this is my eightth chapter. this is a good chapter,and i hope u all like it. cause i know i liked it. it was fun to write,so i hope u all enjoy.

[OnewingedAngel]

This is entirely too exciting. Must have more!

[Dark Night Sky]

ok so here is chapter nine,i hope u all enjoy.
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warning:romance,depression,and bad memories(a.k.a she relives her ****ed up past.)

My life in Hell
Chapter nine:
The new me.

We woke up one morning,we got ready for school,and we went to school.I had completely forgot to change my look.
I sat at the wall,as usual,but in my new look.Mika went to his locker.
"Hey Lizen!"Flare called,but then stopped to look in awe.She was the first,other then Mika,to see my new look.
"Hm?Oh,hey Flare,"I said while she sat down beside me,still in awe.
"Hey angel,"Mika said kissing my cheek and putting his arm around me.
"Hey sweetheart,"I responded as I kissed him on the cheek and cuddled up to him.
"I like your new look Lizen,very cute," Cherety said while she sat beside Flare,who was still in awe.
"Thank you,"I said,then I realized what she meant.
"Hey cutie,you availible still?"one guy asked,he was one of the people in my machine shop class.
"I'm taken,"I said sternly,mad that most guys only notice a women by the way they look.
"Sorry,"he said as he left.
"Now he notices me,"I said a bit upset. No one noticed me,until now.
"Don't be mad angel,it's ok.Just ignore him,he's a stupid bastard,"Mika said kissing me on the cheek to cheer me up.
"Thank you,I know,he is in on of my classes,"I said curling up to him.
The tone went and we all went to our classes.My first class,well all the guys asked me if I was single,I said no. Then there was history,oh did I ever hate it.
"Morning everyone,how are you all?" Mr.Fluent said as everyone sat in their seats.
"Good!"everyone chimmed.Not me though,I said nothing.
"That's good.Ok everyone,now,test time," said Mr.Fluent with an evil smile while he passed out the test papers.
"Joy,"I commented as I got my test paper.
"No negitivity young lady," Mr.Fluent growled at me.When he said that,bad memories came back to me.
"It wasn't negitive sir,honest,"I told him with tears in my eyes.
"Good,everyone,you may start your test once you get it,"Mr.Fluent said as he sat at his desk.
Once I finished my test,I handed it in and he told me I could leave early,so I did.I went to the wall,and cried until I heard the tone.I wiped my eyes,but I was still tearing about what happened in history.
"Hey angel,something wrong?"Mika asked while he sat down beside me.He put his arm around me to pull me closer.
"Hi.History is hell,that's all I've got to say,"I said as I buried my head in his chest.I cried at the memories that were still in my head.I hated these memories,I wanted them to go away and let me live.
"What happened this time?"Mika asked kissing the top of my head.
"We had a test,I said 'Joy' with sarcasim,and Mr.Fluent said 'No negitivity young lady' and when he said that,it brought up a lot of very unwanted memories,"I explained crying some more.I had stopped for a little while to tell him what happened to me.I calmed down a bit this time,and cried softly into his chest.By this time Flare,Cherety,and Tommy were sitting and watching.Tommy was in awe of my new look,he felt jealous of Mika for having me now.
"Oh,Lizen.It's ok,I'm here for you when you need to talk.I'll always be here for you," Mika said hugging me.He wanted to just take all my pain and all my bad memories and throw them away so they would never bug my again.But he knew he couldn't,he knew I have to live with my own bad memories of my old life.He would try and make my life so much better.
"Thank you Mika.It's just that....this one memory is haunting me,trying to make me die! I mean,like seriously,it is the worst of my bad memories.It won't leave me alone,"I cried looking at him.I didn't want to tell this memory to all my friends,not yet. First I must tell Mika, he is the one I trust my life to,so he gets to know first. Then I will tell the others,when I am ready,but not yet.
"What memory is this one?How bad is it?" Mika asked.He wanted to know how bad the problem is and what it is before he could try and fix it.
"I..........it's......I can't say it right now. It's way to personal to say.I will tell you later tonight,"I said calming down and eating my food.I was right,it is WAY to personal to tell all my friends right now.They will have to wait to find out.
"Ok. Well the tone will go any minute now, it's day....2, so I have Physics, so I will go to class now.See you after school angel," Mika said getting up,kissing me on the cheek, and walked off to his class.
The tone went and we all went to class. I went to hospitality, but did nothing in class, my 'Do it Itslef' pen did everything for me.I was lost in my memories to concentrate.Same thing happened in machine shop class,lost in my horrofying memories to concentrate.Everyone in both classes noticed this,but no one said anything about it.
After school I went to the usual meeting place to met Mika.I stood,but lost in my tormenting memories.I couldn't help it,Mr.Fluent brought them all back,including......this one.
"Hey angel,let's go,"Mika said lightly gripping my hand.
"Ok,"I said as I followed him to his car.I was still lost in my mind,Mika noticed that.
On the way home,neither of us said anything to eachother.Mika looked at me every so often, but said nothing.Once we got home I took off my shoes,I went to his room fast.I just wanted to be alone.
"Lizen!Wait you have to....never mind,"Mika said. He followed me to his room.He wanted me to open up more to him.He wanted to know what was bothering me.
"I want to die...."I whispered as he walked in and sat on the bed with me.He knew the reason why I felt like that,it was because of the one haunting memory.
"Why?What's the one memory that was bothering you at school?"Mika asked getting straight to the point.
"I want to because of the memory.The memory is when I was eight,my older brother, Matt,he forced me to have sex with him,then he told my babysitter,Matt Dulen,that I was a whore and that he should try having sex with me.Once I became 10 I knew my torture should end, but to make sure that it would, I cut my arms up. To prove to Matt that I am not a toy, he did stop, after he saw my arms.That still troubles me,"I said as I just stared up at the ceiling.Mika was tramatized when he heard this,he thought my life was bad now,he forgot how bad it probably was back then.Mika didn't know what to do or say.He saw me crying now,so he got me to sit up and held me in his arms.
"I didn't know,I'm sorry to hear that.I wish I could help you. Your life was bad back then, I want you to tell me about your life back then so I know more about you,ok?"Mika asked as I cried still holding him.This is his way of asking me to open up more,but I can't help it,he's my boyfriend now.So I'm going to spill my life to him,like he asked.
"I guess so,but there are a lot of bad memories attached to my past,"I warned as I wiped away all my tears.This will hurt me way to much,but I did warn him first.
"It's ok,I'll prepare myself for your past.And if you need a break to cry,I'm here for you,"Mika said holding me close.He knew this would be the most pain I've gotten in the past few days,but he really wanted to know.
"Ok,I hope your really ready for this,my life is really bad.Thank you for being here for me as well,"I said sitting back against the wall.'Let's go Lizen.Remembe the past,remember all those bad things,remember why you tried to die numerous times.Let's go Lizen,relive your ****ed up past.Tell him,tell him everything.'
"It's ok Lizen,no matter what,I'll still love you,"Mika said sitting beside me.He knew that a million thoughts were running in my mind.He knew that this wouldn't be pretty,no matter how beautiful I looked,my past probably wasn't pretty.
"Thank you Mika.I'll tell you everything there is to know about me,even my terrible past,"I sighed as I leaned on him.'this will hurt me.My past was,and still is,the worst part of me.What if I can't tell him?What if he doesn't care?What if I don't want to tell him? I have to,he has to know,he asked.So I'm going to,no matter what I think,he will know.'
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yeays the moreness,this is for all u who wanted to read more,swy but i cant post any of my drawn pictures quiet yet,i am not done most of them,so u all need to wait a bit longer for those to come out.

[OnewingedAngel]

Been waiting for pictures, a week now. Hurry up!

Kidding, seriously.

[rune]

Her scanner is on the frits so that could be holding her up.

[OnewingedAngel]

Yea, I know. Get the drivers fixed yet?

[Dark Night Sky]

nope not yet,i hope to get it fixed on Sunday.swy for the wait.